My Fears as an Artist

Braaaaainssss!!

Braaaaainssss!!

Happy Halloween!

With all scares and shares going on all day today, I thought I’d take a different approach and talk about some real fears that hit closer to home. As artists living and finding our way in this world, we come across some pretty scary challenges and thoughts. Today I’m going to share some of mine:

– I’m afraid of my own potential
I don’t mean that in a whiny-brag kind of way! I know it sounds ridiculous, but think about it. As long as I keep finding ways to push myself and put my work out there, it’s inevitable that I’ll achieve some kind of progress. More recognition and accolades means more pressure and responsibilities. The decisions that one has to make begin to get tougher and tougher. The balancing act of work, pleasure, and progress can be overwhelming. Will that be me? Can I handle all of that? What things will I have to sacrifice? How can I best avoid missteps and lulls in my artistic career? I can be rather lazy at times and I do love a certain amount of leisure, thinking about all the work I would have to do to maintain some momentum makes my brain hurt.

– I’m afraid that I’m not as good as I think I am
I’m admitting this, realizing that I’m contradicting my previous point. However I think that this is a thought that many artists have from time to time. If you don’t, then show me how you do it! Every time I start feeling proud about something I’ve done, I’ll see someone else’s stellar work and throw my hands up in defeat. “Why do I even bother!?” is the thought that often runs through my mind when that happens. Luckily it’s not something that paralyzes me, I still do what I want and move forward. But, I still have those moments…

– I fear that I won’t nail down my artistic voice
This is a real thing I’m facing right now! This has been taking years for me to develop and figure out and I still don’t think it’s any clearer to me. I’m realizing that there are at least two aspects to my artistic vision or voice, and they have nothing to do with each other whatsoever. Personally I prefer the more traditional side of my skills. Portraiture is definitely my strength and I want to start putting a lot more focus on that. However I think there’s something to some of the more abstract pieces I’ve made this year. I’ve been wracking my brain trying to figure out how I can possibly marry the two sides and really create some dynamic and memorable pieces. I think when I finally get a grip on what that is, then I will experience a serious level up.

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For now, I still feel a bit stuck.

These are just a few things that scare me about pursuing my creative goals. I share these in the hope to show you that you’re not alone! It’s normal and so many of us out here can relate, even the well-known artists. The thing to remember is that even though your fears are valid, they’ll only set you back if you let them! Instead, use your fears to push you forward. Yes I may be afraid that I might not be “good enough,” but I’ve combated that by taking classes and reading about the business of art to help build my skills and confidence. I challenge you to turn your fears around in the same way. Over time you will develop the habit of working with your fears instead of letting them hold you back, keeping yourself on the track to artistic progress and achievement.

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